Another Opportunity to be Alone :)

Saturday Morning.

Mr T brought our kids and his mom to Batam yesterday, and I am left alone at home. Alhamdulilah. Throughout our marriage, he has done this many times. This is how he gives me my space to be me. I need my time alone without him, without the kids. Just me, at home alone. Alhamdulilah. Thank you Beeb! Enta Ahla Shi Fi Hayati! (if you are reading this!)

Sadly, I missed my tahajjud today. But, I replaced it with Dhuha instead. Followed by reciting juzuk 27, a khatam for Ustad TM. (May Allah give him Syifa).

Mr T asked me if I feel bored at home. If I am lonely? Alhamdulilah I am not. I feel like myself. Doing anything and everything I want. When no one is at home, I get to read the Quran as loud as i want to. Haha! I have the chance to be noisy. I don’t need to think about me being too loud, or me disturbing my kids or mil or husband. I just get to be myself! I get to say the ghunnah, khaisyum.. everything the way I did it before. Just like how I once was before meeting Mr T, before marriage.

And so here I am sharing with you some interesting verses I read in the Quran, Surah Hadeed. These verses feels so close to heart.

57:21. So˺ compete with one another for forgiveness from your Lord and a Paradise as vast as the heavens and the earth, prepared for those who believe in Allah and His messengers. This is the favour of Allah. He grants it to whoever He wills. And Allah is the Lord of infinite bounty.

57:22 No calamity ˹or blessing˺ occurs on earth or in yourselves without being ˹written˺ in a Record before We bring it into being. This is certainly easy for Allah.

57:23 We let you know this˺ so that you neither grieve over what you have missed nor boast over what He has granted you. For Allah does not like whoever is arrogant, boastful

57:24 those who are stingy and promote stinginess among people. And whoever turns away ˹should know that˺ Allah ˹alone˺ is truly the Self-Sufficient, Praiseworthy.

Yaqeen. How deep is your yaqeen towards Allah? How strong, how sturdy is your faith in Allah? That is all about it here. Whatever is written for you, will not miss you.