Day 10

Life is boring without food. I am still angsty. Easily triggered over small little things.

I don’t want to give in, I want to win.

Food used to bring out the warmth in me.

Now everything is just icy cold.

Why am i even doing this regime?

What am I trying to prove?

Does it really matter if I am overweight or obese?

Men and their visuals will never be separated.

So why bother? One man’s complain is another man’s treasure.

Do this because you want to.

Do this not because of the people around you.

Do this for you.

(Wallahi i do not want to. No matter what I do I can never get back the same old me. Especially after giving birth to 2 beautiful souls. And losing one at 12 weeks. Nursing them for 2 and half years each is equivalent to losing my precious body. I love every scar my skin have, because this is a proof of 2 happy souls dancing at home.. So why am I still doing this?)

Enjoy the excuses today to spend your time more on your own. Enjoy your walks today and bond with your friends around you.

Find ways to walk and run.

From the people around you and find peace in yourself.

That anger. That pain. Sabran jameel.

Enti Aqwa min haza.

Your patience is worthy.

Give more and invest more.

One day, the step you choose will have an impact to all around you.